STOP STARING AT ME I MIGHT FALL OR I JUST DID

STOP STARING AT ME I MIGHT FALL OR I JUST DID

Last nov 30 I did not expect anything unusual…. Except for my
hair… hehehehe… anyway… I

I was fixing my things from my locker and I notice a guy at my back is looking
at me I thought he is one of my teammate or someone who knew me
and will say something about my hair… but I was wrong…..

I did not even know the guy… so I change the direction of my eye after a
few secs… I decided to look back and he is still looking at me then… for
the second time I decided to change the eye (I hate I contact) then fro the
last time I decided to look and again he is still looking at me…

who is this guy looking at me… any way there are many instances that
I FEEL that he is looking at me because when I look at him he is staring
at me… what the!!! Hehehehe…..

if his guy is just for fun or hook ups…. Not in the office I am not a
virgin in terms of hooking a bi or a playing straight gay men…. I have
my blog to a- test to that… anyway… at least I don’t have a
cold x-mas… hehehehehe

I that even to my friends ………………. After that they already start
teasing me on him…. For the pantry to the elevator event up to the
conference room scene stealer… who will forget that… hehehehe..


anyways…. After a lot I mean A LOT of loko and teasing and staring
and make faces and bridge mode to the TL’s gossing and etc
plus the serendipity (pag kakataon) na nag kakasabay at nag kikita ng
di sinasadya…….
…. I think I am inlove…. He is not good looking
but because of all of this I think I am fall in love w/ him…. Dreaming of
him… thinking of him…. Blah blah blah…. Spare the emotions hehehehe

I was actually trying to think of a strategy or an event or situations I can
talk to him or say hi to him….. unfortunately a very helpful friend of mine
decide to make fun of me and him on the chat room that ends up on the
shyness and stupid reaction of ME….. on HIM…. Gosh….. I am not
really used to this kind of secluded situations ….. shitty men….. From
his HI to may sorry I didn’t hear you… are you talking to me!!! Gosh….
I really hate that day… I almost cry that day.. after my shift…. In
vernacular… pera na nagging bato pa….

that day to compensate of what happened I emailed him apologized and
explain what happen and he replied back and say
its ok. no prob. im LO its ………………………
unfortunately I was not able to understand the LO???? So I decided to emailed
him back and ask the LO unfortunately as of this writing I haven’t receive
any email from him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I all boils down a questions is all of those staring looking and serendipity
event really accidental and he is not really eyeing on me… or he is just making
Fun of me for those days or he was disappointed or what I did because he
really say hi and I did not react…… or he wants to get even with me… or
he is not really eyeing on me and he is really eyeing on my friend/s well
all of this questions will remain unanswered until he speaks up!!!!

Or may be… I just created a make believe world and everybody just participate
In reality I am not in a disney altered character but in a original
Gory-bloody grimms brother version.
How can someone be love if after you don’t believe in love!

in reality theirs no such things as love or no one will love someone
who doesn’t believe in love!